if you only knew
Alexander Stewart
Album: if you only knew (2023)

(Non Capo)

(Intro.)
|(C) / / / |(G/B) / / / |(Dm/A) / / / |(F) / /

(Verse 1)
I've been (C)tryin’ so hard to survive
Sometimes (G/B)I think that I wanna die
I feel (Dm)so f**king guilty 'cause god I'm so lucky to (F)live my life
So I (C)keep all the pain to myself
Losin' (G/B)faith but nobody can tell
Mom, I (Dm)don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me
So (F)I pretend I'm fine

(Chorus)
If you only (C)knew
What my mind is tellin' me I should (G)do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my (Dm)room here tonight(C)
I'm too sad to cry, it's (F)true, oh
If you only knew
All the s**t my brain is puttin' me (G)through
You'd come runnin' over straight to my (Dm)room here tonight
I'm sorry but I need (C)you
If you only (C)knew

(Verse 2)
Oh, I (C)wish I was somebody else
I'm (G/B)constantly overwhelmed
Now I'm (Dm)falling again gettin' drunk with some friends
It's a (F)silent cry for help 
I wanna get bet-(Am)ter, I want you to know (G)
that I can't (F)do this on my (Dm)own

(Chorus)
If you only (C)knew
What my mind is tellin' me I should (G)do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my (Dm)room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry, it's (F)true, oh
If you only (C)knew
All the s**t my brain is puttin' me (G)through
You'd come runnin' over straight to my (Dm)room here tonight
I'm sorry but I need (F)you, oh
If you only knew this (C)hell, oh, somebody (G)help
If you only knew this (Dm)hell, oh, I'm not my-(F)self
I wanna (C)tell you, what my mind is telling me I should (G)do
That I'm  drunk and all alone in my (Dm)room here tonight
I'm too sad to (C)cry, but I (Dm)want to,
(NC)Oh, if you only knew - - - - -